Creative Energy is Currency

Writing saved me in my childhood and continues to save me but more than that, it propels me forward into beautiful spaces, wonder-filled places and uncovers a gratitude that brings life to the simple joys in each day. The propulsion that creative energies offer are the prescription for healing, resilience and forward movement. Let us  shine the light withn ourselve that is brighter from the legacy of those who have gone before us. ♡

The Dust

I had lost my focus for too long.
A thick layer of dust gathered,
it seemed as a wool blanket
covering my hopes and dreams.
Why had I allowed myself to slip away so?
How had one experience and one person
helped me to uncover and discover?
The dust buried my soul,
my true self, for so long.

Was I so afraid to be?
That I had allowed myself to . . .
not be, feel, think or create
from the inside as I know I can.

How much different the world looks to me now.
How I feel with so much more intensity.
Still, in doing so,
I am aware of the possibilities
that the strength of what I feel will increase,
be enlightened with every turn, with every glance
and with each introduction that follows.

The colors are so bold and bright.
The variables in between are so rich and plentiful.
So full of wonder and excitement
is the path ahead.
Still, I feel fear tugging at my back.
Struggling, the fear tries to keep my steps forward
to a tiptoe, a mere shuffle.
I must push ahead,
fear at my back, possibility in my sights,
follow the path until . . .
I meet another path, until . . .

This Thing Called Fear

I often write about this thing called fear. Fear can control our lives if we allow it. Fear can destroy our plans if we let it. Fear can run away with our dreams if we don't stop it. Fear can obstruct us on our path and we must find another route or climb over it. What I want to stop for this moment to talk about is what happens when we conquer our fear. Yes, we can conquer our fear because we created it! When we finally refuse to let fear stand in our way, amazing things happen. Fear is manufactured inside our heads and we shall overcome it! Fear is not the natural way for our lives to be guided. Our natural guide is the shining light within us that directs us out from the shadows and onto the stage where we are meant to shine. I have seen people overcome fear and the most amazing things happen! Look inside yourself and discover why fear has bound you to unhappiness. All of the things you "wanted to do in life" can be accomplished. Overcoming fear can be one of the most rewarding things in life. The possibilities are endless once you are freed from the locks and chains of fear. Break out of that prison, break free for all the world to see and let that light shine!

Wandering Aimlessly

I found myself wandering aimlessly unsure of how I got here. I looked around and noticed something familiar that was disguised by the mask of time. The sensation let me know that time had not altered its ability to draw my insides out. Time had not diminished its ability to fill me with peace and the sense of home that comforts my soul. A genuine strength that exists regardless of time or distance yet when I reach out to embrace it, it slips away. If I had imagined the possibility of embracing something so real, whether as a child or in my dreams, I could never have imagined something so full of beauty, warmth and depth. Still, I never imagined that all of this could be within reach and yet beyond my grasp. I may have been wandering the halls of my mind without a map or strolling through the hollowed walls of my dreams believing it to be real. In either case, it has a grip on me. Still, I cannot fully embrace it.

Falling in, Falling Away

falling in, falling away
never thought it would happen this way
the water's so deep but the hill is steep
falling in falling away
there's a high price to pay
lose a lover while losing sleep
falling away, falling in
don't even know where to begin
where to fall at the end of the day to process this
falling away, falling into
lost in silence, found in pieces
without a place to fit in
falling away or falling in
are you either?
have you already
fallen away and fallen back in?
there was a rush of everything all at once
that seemed so real, so vivid, so full of life
pause
paused still
falling away
falling in
no more?

The Reality

The Reality,
It is harsh and cold
It is blameless and full of fear
It feels new and somehow old
Even when it's foggy, it is still clear

It is filled with passion and desire
It is serenaded by heart strings
It sets our souls on fire
Accompanied by the pain it brings
Reality is our friend, our enemy and everything
in between.

It is the wars between what we know, what we don't and what we believe to be.
It is the fear of what we have done, where we have been and what we have seen.

Reality trips us up along the way, brings us back from fantasy and reminds us that pleasure is not free.

Desire, confusion, passion, illusion, mystery, pain, strength, loss, loneliness, comfort, insecurity, responsibility, ignorance, sadness, fear and disappointment are all part of reality.

We are all alone with our own reality.

Perspective

All we need is a change in perspective . . .

Life is filled with questions, answers, trials, lessons, beauty, wonder, pain, joy, darkness, light, inspiration, sadness and so much more. All of these can be found in everyday experiences, it is just a matter of perspective. Pain and fear can keep us stuck in a place, even paralyzed. Perspective can free us from even the darkest depths where once we may have drowned. Taking a step back and looking at any particular piece of our lives offers us the chance to be more attentive to the gifts within the pain. Renewed perspective can fill us with renewed hope and peace instead of trapping us under the giant thumb of fear.

Fear is powerful because we feed it, absorb it, become one with it and it directs our lives away from our natural, desired path. We can take back the power by turning the fear into joy, possibility, love and light. Whatever it is that is holding us down, we must embrace it!
If fear is keeping us from trying because there is a possibility of failure, look to the lesson it is holding for us. What is the worst that can happen in failure? We can learn from our mistakes, grow from the point of failure and move forward into success the next time. If fear has us stuck in a place because we are concentrating on the failure itself and continually telling ourselves how faulted and bad we are for failing, fear has the upper hand. Take back the power and tell yourself that you needed that experience of failure to grow and better your life. Show yourself that growth is necessary and embracing failure is the best way to move forward into who you are meant to be.

We are totally in charge of our thoughts and how we allow them to make us feel about ourselves. So, tell yourself about the goodness in you. Remind yourself daily to have the willingness to change your perspective and see the gifts in everything. Yes, I did say everything! Gifts come to us in ways, we are not always able to see, especially when we are drowning in suffering, loss, grief, pain. Make the choice to experience the pain, swimming around in the deep blue of it and soak up all that it has to offer. Do not let pain consume you, swallowing you whole as it can easily do. There is beauty in pain. Some of the most beautiful gifts of my life have come from the most painful experiences. Suffering can gift us with great strength if we allow it to. Loneliness can remind us to treasure the beauty in shared moments. Death can teach us to treasure loved ones and the many gems they stuff into our pockets of life. Physical pain is a great reminder to us not to take our health and all that it affords us for granted. Suffering through abuse can build up walls in the heart to protect and strengthen. It can also create a compassionate, far-reaching soul that has a deep understanding for the capacity that the heart has for healing and reviving life from within.

The gifts in pain and suffering are endless and are there to be discovered and bring you renewed perspective. The perspective is yours and that makes it easily adjustable. The ability to do this will bring immediate results. Changing your life is truly as easy as changing your point of view! We all have sad stories to tell but they are just that, stories. These stories do not define us unless we let them. By repeating these stories, we are telling ourselves and others that they define us, when they do not. Our stories are tools that we can learn from.

Here is an idea, thinking of a very personally painful time in your life and on a piece of paper, write down 5 lessons that you took away from it. If you repeat this lesson with other difficult times of life, the lessons will become more and more evident. You may even notice that you have been trying to learn the same lessons over and over again in life. When we learn the lessons that we are meant to, we can share them with others and truly help each other. Pain should not be the most powerful emotion that we experience. Beauty and wonder are meant to fill our days, our hearts, our minds and our souls. It is attainable. Life as beauty is attainable. Fullness of days and love that permeates our life is not a fairy tale, it is within us and we are the masters of our universe.

Find your peace, find the beauty, discover the light within the darkness until you escape from the shadows and soak up the fullness of each and every moment!